a little about me today. for real. how fun

another week and another goddamn monday. goddamn. i say that like today was a bad day or even a day i wasn't looking forward too. neither is true, and in fact i waas greatly looking forward to today so i could get some goddamn sleep. goddamn. but, you know, mondays and all...

anyway, what is the motherfucking deal? i've really got nothing to say to you people today. if i weren't so goddamn tired i'd actually spend some time writing some real stuff, but, you know, goddamn. we shall see. i am awfully motivated though, or something in the vicinity at least. goddamn.

so what's happening "round the way?" nothing it seems. i mean, the sox go about making horribly boring announcements that mean nothing and no one actually cares about. and no tejada/sox news. i am no giants fan, and if possible even less of a jets fan, but man, i am interested in checking out their new stadium they've got cooking up. that thing sounds like a par-tay. maybe i'll use my insane celebrity status to grab some superbowl tickets there, which i'm assuming would be about a year or two after it opens officially.

i seemt o have far more things to chat about that are about me than about general ass shit today, which isn't normally the way i like to operate. i'm trying to control myself, but, seriously, the world as a whole is boring me a bit today.

i had a meeting/rehearsal/dealie on sunday at about 9 in the am. 9 in the am w/ about an hour and a half drive down the penis of connecticut. don't get me wrong, the whole thing went well, and even more psyched about the finished product now that i've gotten to meAt everyone and see them actually in character, but that is just a way too early hour for stahl to operate at. too goddamn early. but, being the first real day of shit and all, i was too nervous/excited to be too tired once i got down there.

as i said above, man, i am super psyched about the cast. first of all, no one is a douchebag. one dude certainly seems like he'll be looking to be punched by day two, not to mention his fucking name it torrance. seriously. wait, let me check my shit, cause that just sounds too fucking dumb to be real. oh jesus, holy shit! the dudes name is "hank torrance", yet for some reason he goes by torrance! fanfuckingtastic. shit, i mean, i know why he wouldn't want to go by hank, but when the alternative is torrance, it takes some serious fucking balls to actually tell people to call you that. goddamn...i'ma call him hank next time, see how that goes. man, it does make sense though, as he is "that kind of guy."

everyone else though, totally awesome. and old. there are three people in this film even near my age, and one of them is me. so two other people, and honestly, one just looks my age, but is actually 30. so then there's just one, who is my age. but it is something, a bit imposing at first to see all these old people who have been acting for most of their lives, and studied it and do shakespeare and shit, and then there's me who two years ago decided, "eh, i suppose i'll be an actor," made up a resume and went about my business. it does say something that i am in this film w/ people who have dedicated their lives to this and shit, that i am naturally better than them, which i'm sure once this is over i'll be back to feeling, but for now, slightly imtimidating.

but the thing is that i can be intimidated as much as i want, but everyone is pretty fucking nice, so it's hard to stay that way. in fact, mild intimidation quickly led to insane boredom after we took a break and everyone started having these horribly boring conversations about theatre and people in the theatre and characters in plays, and how they played them and blah blah fucking blah. the other thing about everyone else is they all have extensive theatre backgrounds. which is a plus for me, as it's easier for me to work on film. and it also helps to make me not the most boring person on the face of the earth.

but man, sorry to all those i'm about to slap w/ my dick here, but everyone in this is better than everyone else i've worked w/ in every aspect. point blank. this will easily be the best finished product i've been a part of. i'm still not overly sure about the script, just exactly where the humor should fall, but going through it, man, this is gonna make all my other shit look like shit. if only it were a larger project immdiately, instead of being more of an audition for future work. but, i'll stay positive w/ how great it's gonna be.

so me and these other two people around my age, i found, tended to hang together more often then not. which is fine by me, both very cool people to this point. the best part of the day may have been that the chick has a bit of experience w/ a dude who was the most douchebaggy/sweetest in my last film. gotta love the new england scene. anyway, for those not in the know, it reminded me of just how fucking sweet mr. william decoff is, and how he has what is most assurdly the worst website ever. the full site will not work in firefox, because seriously, who uses that anyway? jackass. but i'd recommend the experience in both browsers, as each gives it own laugh at it's amount of shit-titude. what a dick

so bottom line is things are awesome on this film. and so far, more so than anyone else i've worked w/ as well, this is a group of people i'd love, LOVE to work w/ in the future. in fact many are people that may make it easier for me to write, as they're people i would love to write into my shit. this one dude so should have been the guidance counselor in remedial attraction instead of my boy dick barron. but, such is life.

the moral of this story, before i just started smoking dicks left and right, is that i thought 9 am was my call time for the actual shoot. and that sucks dick. but not to worry, i was totally mistaken. no, instead it's actually 7:30. am. seriously. that means basically 4:30 am days for me. i am psyched. to the max. woo. fuck...

just to cover some bases, the people in this are better than their respective counterparts in other shit i've done. so most of my "contemporaries" should feel safe in knowing they've yet to be bested. except the ladies. this one is MUCH better than you. so, you lose. and honestly, the guys aren't being bested because there's no competition. though the bar is awfully low, so don't get too excited assholes. plus i hate you all. except for one dude, and he knows who he is. and then i know there's one dude who absolutely thinks i'm talking about him, but hah, no, i am not.

and my old pa (who i'm sure reads this, as does everyone else i'm talking about, because who the fuck doesn't?) is still the best pa. this one has a large dyke-y chick who i think honestly wants to throw me through a window. and should very much could. so...yikes.

man, this post is gaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy. speaking of which, my "not sure" staus on myspace continues to yield an impressive amount of gay invites. and not just "friend invites" from gay guys. gay invites for gay sex. seriously. it's fantastic.

just a sweet lil' note here, to those w/ mouses w/ forward and back buttons on them. it's possible i may be the last person to know this/find this out, but i'm loving it. if you have such a mouse, in itunes you can change songs forward and back w/ those respective mouse buttons. you have to have itunes as the active window, and actually have your mouse somewhere in that window, but still. it may not seem like much, but honestly, i fucking hate having to mouse over to the next and back buttons. it seriously pisses me off.

we're down under two weeks til christmas, and that is some fantastic news. i've recently come into some other fantastic news that concerns the way television is viewed in my household. it will not be viewed the same way for much longer. i am psyched. worst part is that i'm in on the news cause i've gotta fucking sign for this shit sometime later this week, and then somehow not just rip it open and start enjoying that which is "hdtv." fuck my ass. luckily it's off to my ladies for the week leading up to christmas, so hopefully it comes on thursday or friday morning so i won't have to sit and stare at the box the rest of this week. trust me, you'll be hearing all about it two weeks from today. even more so if one lovely 360 happens to make it's way under the tree as well. though if that does happen chances are good you won't hear about it cause i won't be moving til i've gotta go make this movie. 360, giant ass hdtv, 5.1? yeah, as great as it sounds, it's probably not the best thing for me and my career. but, there are worse ways to waste your life.

and that's that. enjoy your last two weeks of shopping and counting down til christmas. it truly is the most wonderful time of the year, so live it up while it lasts. it'll be gone all too soon. i also hoped all your guys watched arrested development tonight. not only was it awesome as always, but we're counting down to the final few episodes here. you better not miss the boat. anyway, enjoy the beyond freezing ass cold, and i'll see you guys in a couple of days. later!

stahl